An Angel In My Eyes

Nurtured by your womb
A soul within a soul.
Within darkness
Into the light,
Then began
The cycle
Of my life.

Baby steps
You held my hands.
School plays
You smiled and laughed.
Teenage years
Shit, I'm sorry.

I learned my lessons
I smartened up.
You stood by my side
No matter what.

Hair greying
I thought it was time
A grandmother once
A grandmother twice.
Such a good one
I'd say the best.
Always here with us
Til I laid you to rest.

Even cancer couldn't
bring you down
You smiled and laughed
and joked around.
You were so brave
You kept me strong.
I focused on the now
Not when you'd be gone.

Never knowing when,
You were doing so well.
A sudden turn,
And then downhill.
Three days at your bedside
I held your hands.
Laboured breathing
Became less and less.
My arms became your blanket
I shed tears upon your chest.
You bowed your head
As if to hug me,
Closed your eyes..
Your final rest.

Lovestruck Marionette

So many years ago
I held you
It was then
I called you mine.
I could look into
Your smiling eyes
Until the end of time.

Love
Struck..
My obsession,
I was crazy over you.

Magnetic from the start.
Such intense desire.
Crash and burn, time to heal..
We'd jump back in the fire.

Marionettes..
Our hearts were.
Plucking at the strings,
Look watch them dance.
Wicked we played
Snip snip, now suffer
Stand by and watch,
Tie up the ends..
It was just a game.

I savored the thrill of highs,
Braced tight the lowest times.
I guess we took for granted,
No matter what..
We'd always be.

Then it was over.

Years went by..
I often thought of you.
Then..
What a beautiful surprise
To see those smiling eyes.
Out of the blue..
You were there.

We held eachother close
A long warm embrace,
Never wanting to let go,
I was so happy.

Days have gone by since then
My calls to you unanswered.
Confused I sit and wonder
Are we playing the game again?

Out Of Focus

Dwelling on what's wrong
But what's so wrong with right?
That little voice inside your head
It keeps you up all night.

Toss and turn,
Your body's tense;
Fears echo through the night.
What if this? What if that?
Your mind's screenplay
Spells disaster.

Make believe
Catastrophies
That record
Won't stop skippin.

Happiness is so short lived
Frustration is consistent.

Pity the fool,
The failure is you.
In solitude you're crying.
Head filled with doubt.
There's no way out,
What's the use of trying?

You look out the window
Up to the sky
You throw your hands up
And yell "Please God Why?"

Grey clouds drift away
The sun shines on you.
Trees seem to dance
And the sky is so blue
Birds happily sing
Their sweetest songs.
It is then you realize
That your focus was wrong.

My Better Half

You slipped into my life
Like an angel in disguise.
My fairy tale prince,
I saw forever in your eyes.

An introduction so kind and alluring
I was flattered with your romantic charm
I felt myself falling oh so quickly

An instant connection
A race car to love
Long lost twin souls
Yin and yang split up
Reunited...a magical bliss.

We sat upon a pedistal
Looking in the water
Our reflections were as one

We savoured every moment
It had never been like this.
Unexpected lightning strikes
So intense
We awe at its beauty

Something too good to be true
I had to go and say it..
Then the waves came crashing down
Houdini waved his wand
I looked and you were gone

Devastated,
My soul cried out
My heart tore to pieces
As black flower petals
Fall and shatter.

I cried a thousand tears
I begged to know why
I fell to my knees
Crushed and broken inside

You stepped into my life
When I didn't know I needed you
You lifted me out of my dark despair
And made me feel alive.

My twin soul
So like me, yet opposite
Our bond eternal
I love you
Unconditional

Quiet Sadness

I know you see
The pain in my eyes,
I can't tell you
What makes me cry.
You would understand but...
Think I don't see your side.

In matters of the heart
We're on a different level.
You can't fall in love
When your heart's still broken.

My feelings lay beneath the surface
I don't want to scare you away.
I savor what is right now
And try not to wait and expect
Something that may never be.