The Unspeakable Truth

As you lay dying

I haven't lost hope.

I see a sadness in you

Like you're ready to go.

Staring at the ceiling

In a trance..

What do you see?

I'll never know,

You won't tell me.

I know you don't like to see me cry.

It hurts me to know

You suffer in silence.

Your emotions trapped inside.

Sleeping the days away;

Waking up for pills

To stop the pain before it starts..

I'm grateful for that.

I just wish that I could get you out more,

I wish your appetite would come back.

I stay strong before you,

But it's hard to see you this way..

So pale and so tiny,

So weak..

Always craving sleep.
Peacefully you'll slip away.

I know this, but I dread that day.

I've had nightmares about it.

I love your smiling strength in spirit,

You've helped to keep me strong.

Your childlike innocence

And kind heart of gold..

I couldn't have asked for a better mother.

I love you more than life.

I wish you could live forever..

Just not like this.