The Calm Before The Storm

Talk the talk
The glass half full,
The sun is always shining.

Glistening rays of light
Touch everything in sight.
With squinted eyes
You realise
There's beauty
In it all.

With light
There must come darkness.
You see the shadows cast behind.

Back
Behind
Reverse
Rewind..
Lessons never learned.
A change of focus,
And now you're dwelling.

Misery wants company.
A social butterfly it seems.
With broken tattered wings,
She cannot fly,
Nor is she singing.

Helpless in despair.
Reaching out does not mean
Save me.
Just a motion away
From carving her way..
Towards scarred everlasting,
Screaming shame..
or
Gone forever more.

In the calm before the storm..
A silence falls,
A clarity forms.
Suffering escapes into words..
Life goes on..

For now.

Out Of Focus

Dwelling on what's wrong
But what's so wrong with right?
That little voice inside your head
It keeps you up all night.

Toss and turn,
Your body's tense;
Fears echo through the night.
What if this? What if that?
Your mind's screenplay
Spells disaster.

Make believe
Catastrophies
That record
Won't stop skippin.

Happiness is so short lived
Frustration is consistent.

Pity the fool,
The failure is you.
In solitude you're crying.
Head filled with doubt.
There's no way out,
What's the use of trying?

You look out the window
Up to the sky
You throw your hands up
And yell "Please God Why?"

Grey clouds drift away
The sun shines on you.
Trees seem to dance
And the sky is so blue
Birds happily sing
Their sweetest songs.
It is then you realize
That your focus was wrong.

My Better Half

You slipped into my life
Like an angel in disguise.
My fairy tale prince,
I saw forever in your eyes.

An introduction so kind and alluring
I was flattered with your romantic charm
I felt myself falling oh so quickly

An instant connection
A race car to love
Long lost twin souls
Yin and yang split up
Reunited...a magical bliss.

We sat upon a pedistal
Looking in the water
Our reflections were as one

We savoured every moment
It had never been like this.
Unexpected lightning strikes
So intense
We awe at its beauty

Something too good to be true
I had to go and say it..
Then the waves came crashing down
Houdini waved his wand
I looked and you were gone

Devastated,
My soul cried out
My heart tore to pieces
As black flower petals
Fall and shatter.

I cried a thousand tears
I begged to know why
I fell to my knees
Crushed and broken inside

You stepped into my life
When I didn't know I needed you
You lifted me out of my dark despair
And made me feel alive.

My twin soul
So like me, yet opposite
Our bond eternal
I love you
Unconditional

Quiet Sadness

I know you see
The pain in my eyes,
I can't tell you
What makes me cry.
You would understand but...
Think I don't see your side.

In matters of the heart
We're on a different level.
You can't fall in love
When your heart's still broken.

My feelings lay beneath the surface
I don't want to scare you away.
I savor what is right now
And try not to wait and expect
Something that may never be.