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Showing posts with label death. Show all posts
Showing posts with label death. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

A Letter To The Other Side


Dear Mother with love,

I think about you everyday and miss you all the time.
How's life on the other side?
Is it beautiful like they say,
in a mystical kind of way?
You're always so happy 
in our dreams.

I've been told that 
you're always with me.
I can't see,
but I believe.

Life isn't the same without you,
so much has changed.
When it rains, it pours
but...
When the sun chases away the clouds;
that rainbow that follows
reminds me
to keep looking on the bright side.

Tonight I'll light a fire
and hand this letter
to the flame.
As the smoke rises
and fades away,
I know in my heart
that this letter will find you.
 

Saturday, September 15, 2012

An Angel In My Eyes

Nurtured by your womb
A soul within a soul.
Within darkness
Into the light,
Then began
The cycle
Of my life.

Baby steps
You held my hands.
School plays
You smiled and laughed.
Teenage years
Shit, I'm sorry.

I learned my lessons
I smartened up.
You stood by my side
No matter what.

Hair greying
I thought it was time
A grandmother once
A grandmother twice.
Such a good one
I'd say the best.
Always here with us
Til I laid you to rest.

Even cancer couldn't
bring you down
You smiled and laughed
and joked around.
You were so brave
You kept me strong.
I focused on the now
Not when you'd be gone.

Never knowing when,
You were doing so well.
A sudden turn,
And then downhill.
Three days at your bedside
I held your hands.
Laboured breathing
Became less and less.
My arms became your blanket
I shed tears upon your chest.
You bowed your head
As if to hug me,
Closed your eyes..
Your final rest.


Sunday, February 12, 2012

Goodbye to a Beloved Family Pet


Detour I look at your pictures and I can't help but cry, I miss you already. I remember bringing you into our lives in the palm of my hands..a tiny baby just like my son. I watched the two of you grow together for the last fifteen years.
I smile and laugh a little thinking back to the days when you were both babies and Braelen thought of you more as a fluffy toy as I'd always catch him dragging you by the tail across the kitchen floor. Other cats would have scratched or bit him but you never did..not ever. Back then you just seemed to know that he was little like you and just didn't know any better. Then five years later Kaya came along and again you were just as patient, gentle and understanding with her in her baby & toddler stage.
I think anyone who ever met you loved you..what was not to love? You were just this big cuddly, gentle cat that would never hurt a fly. I have to laugh now cause thinking about it I don't think you ever did kill a bug..ever, maybe you might have fainted if anything. A bit of a coward you were but that's ok..it was cute.
You were such a beautiful cat, not just in appearance but personality..forever purring you seemed to always be happy and oh so calm, cool & collected. Just being in your presence was enough to bring anyone out of a negative mood.
Another memory that stands out strong in my mind was the time you woke us and saved us from a house fire..not just your average house cat but a hero as well.
In my eyes you are so amazing. I'm so grateful that of all the kittens I could have chosen that day I picked you, or should I say you picked us.
I'm so glad you got to be a part of our lives for so long. I think you had a good life, I hope so. You gave us comfort, joy, happiness, security & so much more. I hope that we gave you a good life in return.
I only wish that you didn't suffer so much before you passed away. It was heart wrenching seeing you that way. We all love you so much, we never wanted to lose you but in the end your death was a relief as it brought an end to your suffering. Although a relief, it doesn't stop the tears from falling. Watching videos and looking through pictures makes me smile remembering all the good times but then I cry cause none of that will bring you back. Thank you for touching our lives with your beautiful little soul. I'll always love you and I'll never forget you. R.I.P Detour aka Dootee XOXO


More pictures to come...



I use this picture as my screensaver now. I think it's very fitting as Detour is now sleeping peacefully.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Monsters


  When children wake from a nightmare crying and scared because of the monsters in their dreams; their parents rush to their bedside to assure them and comfort them that there is no such thing as monsters. I disagree.

Reading the newspaper and watching the news we often hear of violent beatings, rapes and  sadistic torture leading to the deaths of adults as well as young innocent children. The people responsible for these heinous acts...are they not monsters? I think so.

Now, because there's two sides to every story, I'm curious. What happened to that person who was once a pure innocent child as we all were, which molded them into the sick twisted monster they've become to commit acts so violent? They sure as hell  must have had a very rough life and you may argue, "But haven't we all?" True.   

Maybe things go deeper than our closed minds will let us see. In that dark mind, behind those evil eyes is a truth that will answer all the whys. 

Please understand that by dissecting this kind of situation I am by no means saying it's ok. I'm only pointing out that this "monster" was probably a victim starting as far back as their first steps. They could have been beaten by their parent(s), molested by parents, family, friends of family, strangers, teachers or even all of the above. By then with not even an ounce of self esteem would probably attract bullies. Teenage years...forget about friends, dating and socializing. At this point in their life I think they would think of themselves as quite the piece of shit that was never meant to be born, loved or accepted. I think these years would be full of hate and resentment towards others and self, severe depression and suicidal tendencies. 

Now this "victim" becomes an adult, still trying to just fit in and lead a normal life. But I ask you , how could one just brush off all that abuse & lead a normal life?? I know, seek help, go to counseling, see a psychiatrist. Easier said than done. After being mentally, emotionally, psychologically, and physically abused your whole life by the people who are supposed to love you and be there for you...don't you think that you would lose trust in humanity? I know I would. 

Perhaps this "victim" did seek help. A sigh of relief. For once, surrounded by people who understand and are sincere in wanting to help. Finally. They attend therapy and counseling, see a psychiatrist and begin a regimen of medication that makes them feel "normal'. Things look promising. Maybe a job is lined up, friends are made along the way and a first relationship starts. Nice, isn't life grand.

How does that saying go? Oh yea...what goes up, must come down. First relationship, a meaningful one and friends also something new and cherished. What if the friends turn out to be liars and thieves, using and abusing trust. The relationship also falls apart, trust betrayed by cheating ways perhaps with a so called friend. Stressed and depressed, too much work missed leads to getting fired. Can't find another job, funds are running low. Eviction notice slips under the door. No money for medication, barley any food. Life has become shit again. Sleep is no escape as nightmares are a haunting reminder of a past that won't let go. 

Living on the streets now chained down to the rock at the bottom. Looked down upon in disgust has become the norm. Any change spared no longer goes for food but rather any kind of drugs that bring a temporary escape from this existence. A waste of skin, never meant to be.

One cold night, trying to find a shelter with a bed available. Rushing before the beds are all called for. A dark alley is a short cut which turns out to be the wrong way. Out of sight from the public surrounded by a gang. Spit upon and pushed around and laughed at. A big mistake on their end for this "victim" has reached the end of their rope, snaps and loses it. Role reversal, the victim becomes the predator. 

Moral of the story ~ Beat a dog long enough and it will attack