A Letter To The Other Side

Dear Mother with love,

I think about you everyday and miss you all the time.

How's life on the other side?

Is it beautiful like they say,

in a mystical kind of way?

You're always so happy 

in our dreams.

I've been told that 

you're always with me.

I can't see,

but I believe.

Life isn't the same without you,

so much has changed.

When it rains, it pours

but...

When the sun chases away the clouds;

that rainbow that follows

reminds me

to keep looking on the bright side.

Tonight I'll light a fire

and hand this letter

to the flame.

As the smoke rises

and fades away,

I know in my heart

that this letter will find you.

 

An Angel In My Eyes

Nurtured by your womb
A soul within a soul.
Within darkness
Into the light,
Then began
The cycle
Of my life.

Baby steps
You held my hands.
School plays
You smiled and laughed.
Teenage years
Shit, I'm sorry.

I learned my lessons
I smartened up.
You stood by my side
No matter what.

Hair greying
I thought it was time
A grandmother once
A grandmother twice.
Such a good one
I'd say the best.
Always here with us
Til I laid you to rest.

Even cancer couldn't
bring you down
You smiled and laughed
and joked around.
You were so brave
You kept me strong.
I focused on the now
Not when you'd be gone.

Never knowing when,
You were doing so well.
A sudden turn,
And then downhill.
Three days at your bedside
I held your hands.
Laboured breathing
Became less and less.
My arms became your blanket
I shed tears upon your chest.
You bowed your head
As if to hug me,
Closed your eyes..
Your final rest.

Goodbye to a Beloved Family Pet

Detour I look at your pictures and I can't help but cry, I miss you already. I remember bringing you into our lives in the palm of my hands..a tiny baby just like my son. I watched the two of you grow together for the last fifteen years.

I smile and laugh a little thinking back to the days when you were both babies and Braelen thought of you more as a fluffy toy as I'd always catch him dragging you by the tail across the kitchen floor. Other cats would have scratched or bit him but you never did..not ever. Back then you just seemed to know that he was little like you and just didn't know any better. Then five years later Kaya came along and again you were just as patient, gentle and understanding with her in her baby & toddler stage.

I think anyone who ever met you loved you..what was not to love? You were just this big cuddly, gentle cat that would never hurt a fly. I have to laugh now cause thinking about it I don't think you ever did kill a bug..ever, maybe you might have fainted if anything. A bit of a coward you were but that's ok..it was cute.

You were such a beautiful cat, not just in appearance but personality..forever purring you seemed to always be happy and oh so calm, cool & collected. Just being in your presence was enough to bring anyone out of a negative mood.

Another memory that stands out strong in my mind was the time you woke us and saved us from a house fire..not just your average house cat but a hero as well.

In my eyes you are so amazing. I'm so grateful that of all the kittens I could have chosen that day I picked you, or should I say you picked us.

I'm so glad you got to be a part of our lives for so long. I think you had a good life, I hope so. You gave us comfort, joy, happiness, security & so much more. I hope that we gave you a good life in return.
I only wish that you didn't suffer so much before you passed away. It was heart wrenching seeing you that way. We all love you so much, we never wanted to lose you but in the end your death was a relief as it brought an end to your suffering. Although a relief, it doesn't stop the tears from falling. Watching videos and looking through pictures makes me smile remembering all the good times but then I cry cause none of that will bring you back. Thank you for touching our lives with your beautiful little soul. I'll always love you and I'll never forget you. R.I.P Detour aka Dootee XOXO


More pictures to come...

I use this picture as my screensaver now. I think it's very fitting as Detour is now sleeping peacefully.